to feel feelings

I am feeling an awful lot right now.

This is the stuff from which truly awful (and the most appropriate) blogs are fashioned.

I am filled with insurmountable rage, and pain, and hate, and fear, and nothing to lead me into any sense of identity whatsoever.

My skin is cold and pale to the touch-- so many tiny blood vessels selflessly constricted to nourish the viscera instead.

And yet, my cheeks flush wastefully red, and I nearly feel their downy hairs curling over in singe.



The terrible things I feel I can barely identify, much less quantify, but I promise it's much more significant than this terrible attempt at description.