tonsillitis

Like, seriously?  Again? Or is it just always.
Is it that they never really healed, and this is just another flare up-- or that I DO get better, but they are so sore and irritated that they are all too susceptible to re-infection?
Or, being that tonsils are naturally the body's immune system dumping ground, is it simply that everything I come in contact with immediately ends up there first?

No matter the case, I am sick of it!

Is it the notable dive I've taken in my mental health that has inevitably affected my immune defense?

Am I making myself sick?

Is it so terrible that I want to go away a while...  That I have so strongly thought on the matter of checking myself in, letting someone else take care of me, just for a while.  Just to be alone.  Is it wrong to run away?

"There is so much shit in this life that it is a tragedy when a thing of beauty is struck down-- but if that beauty were to simply walk out of its own accord, it would be so much worse..."


But to be completely honest, what difference would it make?  Who would miss me?
I am a burden on my best of days.  A poison.
A disease.